I upped my walking to 30mins today after three times of walking for 25mins and doing yoga two times. My feet and legs are hurting and I was watching the clock tick down the last third of the walk, begging the clock to hurry up. You would think that adding five minutes would not be that big of a deal, but it was. After I finished my walk my legs were a little shaky, but I felt really energized and more awake then I was before I started. I am so happy I made it through the 30 minutes of my exercise. I felt great after walking both mentally and physically. I am so glad I pushed through. There will be sometimes that will be hard to get it going and to finish it. I just have to remember how I feel after I walk. I feel better after I workout, both about myself and physically better.
On my last entry I put my weight and measurements up for the world to see. It was a hard thing for me to put it up there and admit to the world that I am that big and that unhealthy. If I want to really do this I need to put it up there. Show where I started from.
My weight was really a slap in the face last time I went to the psychiatrist, I was 4 pounds away from 300. I do not want to pass that mark on the scale. It scared me. A lot. It woke me up that I need to really do something about it and not just sit around and keep getting bigger.
Here are starting measurements and weight. I don’t have a scale to weigh myself at home with so that will only be updated about every three month when I go to the psychiatrist, that is the only time I am ever weighed. I will update the measurements once a month.
Waist: 49 inches
Hips: 57 1/2 inches
Arms: 21 1/2 inches
I have done yoga a few times and I just took a 25 minute walk. The yoga is still fairly hard. The walking was easier. It did help that I had on an audio book while I walked. I have found that if I listen to a book I can get lost in the story so the walk doesn’t feel as long.
I did the yoga for indie rockers DVD yesterday afternoon. It was a lot harder to do than the last time I did it. Of course I weighed about 30 pounds less last time I did it. My legs were so weak when I got done. It could be worse though, I could have not been able to do it. I was able to do it, it will just take time and practice for it to get easier.
I have been thinking about it for awhile and I think I am going to go mostly vegan. It is not really possible in my situation to go fully vegan at the moment. I will try to eat vegan the best I can in every situation but sometimes there is no vegan option, so I have to eat what is available. I think it will help my health a lot. I just need to make healthy choices food wise. Snack on baby carrots and celery instead of pop-tarts and chips. I think that writing down what I eat will help a lot as well. It will make me realize and take a hard look at what I am eating and how much. My main worry about changing my diet is that I buy the cheapest food I can right now because I really can’t afford to do otherwise. Hopefully I can find foods that my cost a bit more but are more filling. I also need to work on not eating when I am bored. I am going to start making hot tea or coffee when I am not sure if I am hungry or bored and see if just drinking that helps.
I bought some running shoes today. $62. That is a lot of money to me. I am trying to think of it as an investment in my future. A lot of money that I am scared that I am going to waste. I know I am going to try and work out and lose the weight. I just hope I can stick with it this time. I have tried so many times to lose weight and get healthy. Sometimes it worked and I lost some weight, but something always gets in the way or I give up cause it is too hard.
The last time I had some success was when I was doing this DVD called Yoga for Indie Rockers. It is fairly fast paced yoga set to good music and taught by a tattooed chick. I loved the idea of it and I stuck with it for a good while. I am the least flexible I have ever been and the heaviest I have ever been. Those two things are not good for yoga. I am thinking that I am going to start doing the yoga DVD again. It is something for me to do till I get to I can use a treadmill. That way I feel like I am doing something to lose weight and get in better shape. It is killing me to be sitting here with all this energy, need, and potential to work out and not be able to. So, I will be adding in the yoga DVD to my workouts and before my workouts start on the treadmill. I have got to do something. Sitting here and just getting bigger and bigger is killing me, literally.
I now have a plan. I will try to the yoga at least three times a week till I move then I will add in the treadmill and maybe do the yoga on days when I don’t use the treadmill. I want to keep the yoga at least once a week once I move. I like doing it.
I have to stop worrying about the price of the shoes. It is an investment in me. I need to see me as something worth investing in.